Life values

We haven't had any internet access at the land, and I am embarrasses to admit, it's all my fault. I downloaded the whole entire first season of friends a few weeks ago not knowing how that will spike our satellite blood pressure, like sugar to a hypoglycemic. I however have had lots of time to just think and think and I love that. The funny thing is that, really I have an overabundance of time to think and think but it's not till I'm around people and activity that I actually do think and ponder life. I am an extrovert and so I am refreshed by people, people make me feel alive, I need people. We have had a lot of guest coming through the land lately, there always seems to be people hanging out in the big house (our communal area) playing music, talking, conversations. So with my thinking lately has come some thoughts on my life's values. I've decided to make some values for my life, they are "what comes in and what goes out". Meaning, I'm going to start being very aware of what comes in, healthy nourishing food, beauty and art in what I read and watch, nothing that doesn't edify my spiritual walk, and what goes out, what I speak, encouraging loving words nothing that would hurt another, nothing spoken in fear or insecurity. This will be difficult but it's a goal, it's also pretty boiled down. I don't mean I won't be silly or crack jokes, or have simple conversations for the sake of conversation, I just want a guide line for my life to keep it simple wholesome and real.

My community

I love my little community. We are a similar minded community, loving art, people Gods beautiful creation and travel. When I remember what a blessing it is to live such a lifestyle my heart takes a deep breath. When I walk into the garden to gather tomatoes for the night's dinner I am bathed in fresh air. When travelers stop to spend a few nights, new music is made, nights by the fire, flames licking the air, dancing, poi, faces across the fire flickering, smiling. Living community day by day, with sometimes just the few who live here, sometimes with our nomadic friends, we'll see them again in another place, there still in our family, this is our lifestyle.

And all the mamas say

I finished the baby blanket that I've been knitting for my stepsisters new baby boy.

One woman's old thrift store shirt, is another woman's new thrift store shirt

I was in a coffee shop yesterday visiting with two friends after a two week long period of holding down the fort, all by my lonesome. Because of my extrovertedness and therefore need of people to be rejuvenated back to myself , I was quite rejuvenated, and it showed through talkativeness and silly delirium. Everything was making me giggle. Especially when I posted a comment on someone's blog but didn't realize that my friend Mark had been on my computer and he was still logged into his own blog account, so when I posted the comment that said "your post gave me the giggles" my friends man head popped up next to the comment. And I was in hysterics to no end that my friend Mark told a lady that her post gave him the giggles. As this was happening I looked up and my hysterics quieted down as I caught sight of my old tank top. It was moving to the beat of some new lady, once a unique treasure that I had found in one of the most authentic thrift stores I know of, the kind that has racks but have long since been lost inside the mountainous piles of storage smelling clothing. It struck me as a very interesting phenomenon. How often does one see a person wearing there old things after giving them to thrifts. This lady 10 feet from me had no idea that she was wearing the shirt that I wore for eight years. What was once a treasure to me really had become a treasure to someone else.

laughing out loud

One of my favorite things to do, is laugh out loud. Especially if I'm all by myself and reading a book, and especially especially if the book isn't specifically funny, and so I'm not expecting it. When my body responds with laughter before I've have time to register what I've just read. Although laughing out loud isn't as fun when you're standing in a grocery store line without company and you remember something funny then laugh out loud. That has happened to me quite a few times, and I always feel awkward, especially since I'm usually still thinking about what made me laugh so I can't wipe the goofy grin off my face.

Rantings of a bored girl

Oh for the days when my social life looked more like the television show friends (without all the naughty talk) than it does well, a television show that looks like the opposite of friends(I don't watch a lot of telly). I remember a time when breakfast lunch and dinner I had a gang. We had inside jokes, we had "hey cards again tonight" and "so what are we doing this weekend". There was never a dull moment. Now though, I am last single woman standing. Please let me know of any of my kind out there. Of course I've really loved living around families, and have learned so much about motherhood before my time to join the 'hood, and now when I visit with other mommy's I have stories to tell as well. "Well my friend Rachel's kid did this, and my friend Candace's kid did that, and did I tell you about the time when little leafy did that really cute thing. I just feel like I'm hovering somewhere in between the exciting single life and heart warming family life without an anchor. I'm just free floating anchorless Renee who's been watching too many friends episodes because she downloaded the entire first season from i-tunes. Speaking of which I have B&J's in the freezer and a few more episodes to watch. So I guess I'm done ranting.